WHY I DO THE THINGS I DO
This about page is a cool place where I get to tell you how I ended up doing the things I do. I'm sure it has something to do with the trauma I deliberatly inflicted upon myself as a child or the horror films I watched at such an early age or the previous lives I lived probably doing very horrible things leading to the karmic experiences I am now sharing with you. I started a few fires when I was a kid. I can do all that right here on this website. This website is a place I sometimes go to ventilate, escape from the everyday mundane aspects of life or slip away into the limbo of my everyday dreamscapes. Returning to why I do the things I do - I have a deep, profound impression that it has something to do with my obsession with Cheech Wizard, Lizard and everything Vaughn Bodē. I'm also sure it has something to do with the significant influences of Paul Twitchell, Stephen King, Clive Barker, Peter Straub, Jack Ketchum, Joe R. Lansdale, Dean Koontz, Rick Hautala, Edgar Allen Poe, H.P. Lovecraft, Bram Stoker. . . I'm sure it has something to do with the things these people have created that I allow into my mind. I'm sure it also has something to do with the numerous religious systems I have been immersed within and the influence of the government, the media, my time in the military and the disturbing interpersonal relationships I have cultivated with members of the opposite sex. I'm also certain that the time I spent raiding the medicine cabinet at home when I was a kid had a lot to do with my mind set - after all - I was only 12 years old. I used to deliberatly create bizarre concoctions in order to stimulate nightmares. I know that affected me. And - as embarrasing and politically incorrect to admit - that I used to deliberatly overdose on certain pharmaceuticals to see if I would survive and live to remember and tell of the experiences. I was intrigued. I was surrounded by the emerging hippie scene and immersed in the psychedelic movement. It's tough to be honest sometimes and own up to the things we all have done. I don't endorse these behaviors. I was experimenting. I don't encourage any of you to emulate me. I encourage you to find your own reality - your own voice - to immerse yourself in your own journey. If you were to follow the paths I have tread, the reality is that you may not survive. I have had guns to my head, bullets flying over me, and have faced death many times. It's not that I recommend it, however, keep in mind sometimes life simply brings these experiences into your reality. Reality can be anything we create - or - we can slip into someone else's reality. It can be simple or it can be complex. It's up to you. You may want to seek out the advice of your physician before you read anything here. You may want to invite them to sit with you to read - or have them read my stories outloud to you. Do any of you feel like there's a black cloud following you? I have felt that way all of my life. And then I came to realize that within that black cloud - within that storm that always followed me - was the rain. The healing waters of the rain. It's all about perspective. Even if the rain became tears, it's still all about perspective.
I'm here to provide you with another perspective - an alternative - a fictional alternative. Another place to escape from your life - even if it's just for a while. We all need a getaway sometime - even if it's a fabricated illusion. Coming to my website can be as good as or better than a vacation on a deserted tropical island. It's much more affordable. You're already paying for internet or getting it for free. At the most, it'll only cost you a few bucks or quid for a download of my written work available in various formats and locations, such as Amazon. And keep in mind: not everything I write is frightening. Some of it is downright humorous. There will also be free stories here for you to sadistically inflict damage upon yourself and then there are the tales designed to heal you. We all need a bit of healing at times. Those stories you will usually be required to consume by excess - overdose, if you will - and through the saturation of oddities you will experience from the countless lies in the form of fictional prose designed to enlighten you, you may just discover the truth and step away a new person. You may even experience a nightmare and fly upright in your bed screaming. It may happen more than once. I recommend you write these nightmares down. Have a cheese sandwiche and go back to sleep. Hopefully, the nightmare will return and you'll better learn how to cope with contrasting situations in life. Something else worth considering is that what you will find here are works of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living, dead or undead, or actual events is purely coincidental. At times, I have tried to recreate events, locales and conversations from my memories of them. In order to maintain their anonymity in some instances I have changed the names of individuals and places, I may have changed some identifying characteristics and details such as physical properties, occupations and places of residence. Please keep these things in mind - it's easy to get lost down the rabbit hole. That's it for now. I'll be back. Thank you for keeping me company in my fabricated madness. I'm just your mirror, reflecting your deranged belief systems.